M̶i̶n̶d̶ 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛 .

i braced my morning with confusions,
i, myself wasn't in genuine happiness.
then,
there's you.
you filled me with hope and courage,
you summon the best part of me that no one was able to identify.
when I switched myself the other way round
my system became in deeply blue,
ireminisce about it.
and still feel the excitement.

you gentle held my hand,
you're ineffable to everyone,
and also,
the first time my parents never disagreed about,
i found myself being amazed,
and delusional,
up even until now.
wishes that dreams can be reality too.

_mndchttr🍁

I'll take it . As this metamorphosis made me autodidactic . I will acknowledge this affliction .Every poked words you've marked . Even at times that I couldn't comprehend you , I did uphold every youtuber you favored , movie shows you used to scrutinized , homemade expirement attempts , morning melodies that hyped us up , bathroom concerts for hours and melted skim candy bar on your milk . All I'm longing and craving in , was affection but I guess the care you gave was out of pity .

_mndchttr🍁

The sky is so tragically beautiful , a graveyard of stars . I saw an alluring smile with shimmering eyes , a euphoric feeling that always comes with strings attached that makes us hesitant .

_mndchttr🍁

_

He said " Can you read me your write ups ? "

; But my pieces' quite sketchy you wouldn't understand it

" A broken piece without a whole "
*chuckled

quite awkward tho " I said .

I do understand you cause I do understand your fragments too .

" That piece was you that kept messin' up the whole time "

_mndchttr🍁

I gave u luminousity like the sun did but seems like you've never valued every ray that bends . Every blissful morn as I glance at the window , it kept reminding me what we did last spring season . I didn't expect that one day it became a storm . A trauma that had caused me stigma .It shivers down my spine everytime you tell me how your day was . My underrated feelings made me utterly dumbfounded . It sucks me hell out of this chamber that I'm imprisoned in . You confounded nuisance being ignorant of our existing connection .

_mndchttr🍁

I was haunted by the memories we've made , it made me feel like i'm the one to blame for all the failures in our relationship but I was impressed that you've never repent me for those . You always showed me your unconditional love yet I was so numb to realize it . I won't regret it cause it was my decision after all . I was just anxious for giving my all and ended up ending it.

_mndchttr🍁

Our communication develops affection towards each other and created a positive relation where both of us is the recipient of our own devotion in which our emotion is connected .

_mndchttr🍁

"Its the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting"

_mndchttr🍁

_ Here it goes as my mind chatters
memories scatters , nostalgic feeling burst all over
sudden goosebumps makes me shiver
why am I hearing whispers ?

"I'm such a blister "

_mndchttr🍁